Post by suze on Nov 8, 2011 10:29:22 GMT
I spent last night here on my own, thanks to plumbing hoo-ha mainly
So, unable to sleep .... I set to re-reading my original blogs ...
5 years of record keeping .. it interested me, actually to review it all ... and I am glad I kept a blog
.. but I have no hard copy of any of it, so if the technology went down it is not saved anywhere . weird
I also found this little exclamation of delight which I wrote after my first chemo finished and I was cycling in Scotland again ...
Scotland Oct 2007 --
back on the bike after a year of various treatments following my first diagnosis, looking very bloated and tired, tbh, but going for it!
This is what I originally blogged with these picures:
Walking and cycling in Scotland ... ppl who know me - know that I love to do this I have to say that a year ago, I really, really, really could not believe that I would be taking part in the glories of Scotland, ever again ....
and yet,
here I am, besides myself, really,
with joy and delight
rapture, even
to be there
to be stronger than I thought I could ever be again
to be walking, cycling .. let's face it,
breathing !
total delight
total rapture
Thank-you,
God
Amen
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and now hold on to this .. if the next scan leads to more treatment it is not an end .. it is a slowing and a closing but it is not an end, and we should not treat it as such
If it is treatment again, we will do it, and I will get strong again after it .. I will.
I will not lose my ability to feel joy, or rapture, even.
Joy in life, however simple, it's all there is .. really
that and breathing
breath
inspirer
x
x
So, unable to sleep .... I set to re-reading my original blogs ...
5 years of record keeping .. it interested me, actually to review it all ... and I am glad I kept a blog
.. but I have no hard copy of any of it, so if the technology went down it is not saved anywhere . weird
I also found this little exclamation of delight which I wrote after my first chemo finished and I was cycling in Scotland again ...
Scotland Oct 2007 --
back on the bike after a year of various treatments following my first diagnosis, looking very bloated and tired, tbh, but going for it!
This is what I originally blogged with these picures:
Walking and cycling in Scotland ... ppl who know me - know that I love to do this I have to say that a year ago, I really, really, really could not believe that I would be taking part in the glories of Scotland, ever again ....
and yet,
here I am, besides myself, really,
with joy and delight
rapture, even
to be there
to be stronger than I thought I could ever be again
to be walking, cycling .. let's face it,
breathing !
total delight
total rapture
Thank-you,
God
Amen
----------------------------------------------
and now hold on to this .. if the next scan leads to more treatment it is not an end .. it is a slowing and a closing but it is not an end, and we should not treat it as such
If it is treatment again, we will do it, and I will get strong again after it .. I will.
I will not lose my ability to feel joy, or rapture, even.
Joy in life, however simple, it's all there is .. really
that and breathing
breath
inspirer
x
x